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^{- 2008-10-11 @ 7:52 p.m.}

I was so shagged after the graduation ceremony yesterday i could feel myself becoming faintish and not in the correct mode. The whole thing lasted for 3 bloody hours, and i swore i felt like screaming when i heard there were SO MANY speeches to be made. Some were really funny and others tried too hard to be funny. Anyways, i decided to dao my class temporarily and go home to SLEEP because i really needed my beauty sleep since its like 15 minutes to my bedtime when i left school.

What happened later really scared me. By the way, my parents attended my graduation ceremony. On my way home (1 minute walk more to reach my block), i came across a vending machine and my dad bought me a can of coke since he could see that i was virtually half asleep, walking with half my eyes closed and hugging my hc teddy bear. Al of a sudden when we entered the lift my mum was like "OMG WHY IS THERE SO MUCH BLOOD ON YOUR SKIRT!".

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Don't get the wrong idea. I didn't have my *ahem* and the blood stains were at the front of my skirt at my thigh area and i had a huge shock. I didn't even know where the blood stains came from and i have no recollection of touching a bloody person (?). After that, my dad said i've got red 'paint' on my fingers and i was like ohh. I used a tissue to wipe my fingers and the red 'paint' just couldn't stop flowing. After 3 seconds i was like "WHAT THE HELL" because my finger was bleeding profusely and i had no idea it was bleeding eventhough i was staring at it. I think i was just too tired that i couldn't feel the pain which is bloody scary. I ran home and washed my finger under the tap (i think i cut my hand when i opened the coke can) and i just stood there, dazed. My finger was still bleeding after i washed it. After 5 minutes or so, i was extremely awake because IT WAS BLOODY PAINFUL. Omg. The cut was so damn bloody deep and when i put on the cream i just wanted to die.

I put on my plaster and went to sleep. End of story. LOL.
This shows that when i am deprived of my sleep, any thing can happen and i won't even be aware of it -.-

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^{- 2008-09-27 @ 9:29 p.m.}

I LOVE this song and this MV. Check it out.
<3 G dragon and TOP!

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^{- 2008-09-25 @ 3:43 p.m.}

:(
I think words alone can't comfort me anymore. Seriously, sometimes i can't stand myself. Sigh. I think i need to buck up, forget and move forward. This whole thing has been a nightmare. A terrible nightmare indeed.

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^{- 2008-09-24 @ 6:56 p.m.}

It's been EIGHT whole years since i've entered the Zoo. Even though i'm not some huge animal lover, i still love the zoo but it got boring after awhile. Anyway, photos...

MY GROUP OF INSECTS (excluding ladybug). Now you know who i am talking about when i mean insects. Lol.

BLOODY CUTE. I want one.

Timon is the <3 Its so cute it actually posed for the photos! Awww

Sherhan trying to 'seduce' her lao gong. Seriously, they make a nice lesbian pair but i'm so gonna get bashed up if anyone of them see this. Muahahahas. Cockroach + Fly = offspring with low viability.

My favourite photo. Why? Because my face is covered :D Guess who is who?

Our failed attempt at a jumpshot. Seriously, i've ALWAYS failed in this area. I have not done a proper jumpshot since i was three.

Damn scary. ZL makes a nice shield by the way.

Time to feed the baboons! I love the baby baboons. They're really cute and they do somersaults when they see you (to attract your attention). We've been trying to throw the bananas to this cute little baby baboon and this fat and ugly and old and idiotic baboon kept SNATCHING/ROBBING his bananas. Argh. Luckily the baby baboon managed to catch this huge chunk of carrot and it just jolt pass the fat baboon into some isolated area and spent a good 10 minutes eating that carrot. So sweet =)

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^{- 2008-09-17 @ 9:20 a.m.}

I have deleted my previous entry because i really think its bad karma. The more i blog about how sucky my results are going to be, the more sucky its gonna be!! SOO IM GONNA REMAIN POSITIVE! JIA YOU :D:D Btw, i went to the zoo yesterday with my insects (sounds damn wrong for those who don't know me very well). HAHAS. Shall post photos soon! I love the baboons btw =)

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^{- 2008-08-30 @ 8:37 p.m.}

i feel like dying. someone save me.

I HATE STUDYING. WO HEN AH!

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^{- 2008-08-18 @ 3:59 p.m.}

I can almost feel the pressure of prelims looming closer every second and i'm completely not in the mood for studying. I'm really scared but it's ironic how i waste my time away doing rubbish. I guess i must throw away my fears for now, and focus and concentrate on getting everything important into my head.

Did some self-reflectons a few weeks ago and finally consolidated my possible future career choices. I'm mostly looking into typical professions, and have more or less decided between law, medicine or business. I've decided to take the LNAT test after As and have started to really look into UK law universities. Missed my chance for applying for oxbridge, but i don't regret because i don't think i will be happy, with the applications so rushed and with my lousy blocks results = lousy projected scores = very low chance of getting in so i might as well just focus real hard on UCL. TIMES said UCL beat Oxford for Law. An added incentive to study there, and i love London. Maybe i'm making the most sensible choice, but i don't know. Staying in Singapore may be one of the most viable options, since i don't want to be some high-powered career-orientated woman or something. I just want a normal and comfortable life. SIGH.

Okay. Back to mugging. Shall update soon but there's really nothing interesting about my life.
Oh. Yesterday marked the end of the Beijing Olympics journey for Michael Phelps. I'm feeling really sad now. There's virtually nothing else for me to look forward to.
<3 Phelps - The greatest Olympiad of all times =)

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^{- 2008-08-11 @ 10:04 p.m.}

I feel so nerdy blogging about school and exams all the time. What can i do? I'm a freaking J2.
Anyway, yours truly hasn't started hitting the books yet for prelims. I have no idea what i was doing for the past few days, but i'm starting to get worried.
I realised i'm always such a last minute person, but i need to get into the momentum! As of yet, i feel nothing and i doubt anything can stay in my brain past 2 days so might as well don't start the real mugging yet.
I was happily thinking about how wonderful school is when my classmates just had to remind me i have an organic chem test tomorrow which i of course, did not remember, lest study for it.
By the way, i just finished watching the young warriors of the yang clan (the one that's showing on channel 8). I could feel my heart aching everytime i hear the song (yes i know its cliche) but it's really sad that everyone died for the country (and it's half true since its sort of recorded in those older history textbooks). I used to think dying for the country is one of the dumbest thing that anyone can do. If i were a soldier, especially in those ancient times, who cares about the bloody king?! I'll run first, or hide behind the king even. Really. I have no idea how those ancient people think, especially "heroes" like Yue Fei. Yet, after i watched the show, i could finally understand why some of them treasure the country more than their own lives. The show has really broadened my perspective, but i doubt such idealogies can be sustained.

Basically, the conclusion is, if your surname is yang, you should really feel honoured to have people like that as your ancestors. Unless you're like a certain blogger who's got nothing better to do but lie about your heritage. Seriously. To think we graduated from the same secondary school. Argh.

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^{- 2008-07-24 @ 10:07 p.m.}

Frustration, terror and happiness. Feelings that cannot be expressed in words. Trapped as voices are buried within. I need some air. Let me out

REVIEWS FOR BATMAN: THE DARK KNIGHT

I have no idea why some people hate the movie so much (for instance, my bunch of insects). I love it - to the core. I savour every single moment of it, right down to the most minute bits. I adore all the joker moments, as the interpretation of joker is much more original and innovative. I love how the director has shaped batman such that he has become much more layered as a person, contrary to the dull and corny bruce wayne in batman begins who, as predictable as it sounds, seeks revenge blindly and craves for justice (which is kind of ironic in that sense). I'll kill to see edison chen get less screen time, to reduce that 3 seconds to a quarter of a second. It'll be great if i can replace him in the movie. I'm pretty positive that no one will see much of a difference.

Negative aspects: The movie is simply too longgggggg. There were way too many descriptive scenes than necessary, and it will be great that they take the old, ugly and shrivelled maggie glynehaal off the screen because she looks absolutely stunning beside christian bale and heath ledger (if you think i'm serious, i've got no choice but to say you're either stupid, or blind). Christian Bale could have shown more sadness when Rachel died, but apparently he didn't. He didn't even look upset to me.

I need some space. It's all meant to be. The fruits of my labour AWAIT me. I can almost feel it

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^{- 2008-07-16 @ 6:23 p.m.}

Long awaited pictures...

I was reading some people's blogs just now and i realised my blog is really boring because there are no pictures. SO, i shall upload random pictures here (just to please myself :p)

CO CONCERT!
We went there to support ziyi (duhh). My first time in a CO concert. Had alot of fun =) I remember, a few hours before the concert, i was at swiss hotel eating buffet and the BUFFET SUCKS. Sigh. Yay! <3 dragonfly btw =) She rocks during the CO concert!!

My love in recent months (of course DBSK remains the untouchable in my heart but you know, fans can be fickle). Wait. Don't insult k =)

Me and my uber hot cousin X) during new year (yay i love new years). Scrawny kid beside me in brown is my dear brother, whose face, you sadly, cannot see. Er. Just imagine me with short hair with that shirt, but very black and more stretched. Yeah. I think that's him :)

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^{- 2008-07-16 @ 5:45 p.m.}

my block test results are out :(((

i can string the letters together to form
ABBU
HAHAHS. ABBU = ABU = MUM
You see mum, i love you so much i scored you in my blocks! (okay thats so lame)
wondering where my U was from? WHAT ELSE. MATH LAR. -pissed-
i was telling myself to stop all the "complaining about results thing" cause blocks is like no big deal compared to prelims? But aiya. Math paper was do-able and i got U. sian. Not like i don't know how to do cause when i relooked through it, all the solutions just appeared in my head. I guessed i got fever that day cause all i remembered was a splitting headache and lack of concentration. Maybe that's why my bio improved. Fried my brain during bio paper.

I must FA FEN TU QIANG from now on. Look out for mugger yk. =)

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^{- 2008-06-07 @ 6:52 a.m.}

It's 6:52 am now. I am feeling very bored. I haven't started studying for blocks but i don't feel very upset about it. There is really something wrong with me.

Anyway, the whole world has been bugging me to set up a facebook account, of which i did a few days ago and it's bloody useless. -.- I was so bored i did some stupid princess quiz and i don't want to be cinderella -.- CAUSE I CAN CHANGE FROM RAGS TO RICHES MYSELF HAHAHAS =) I totally don't need a prince, but it wouldn't hurt if one drops by (and add to my fortune. HAHAS).

I'm uttering nonsense. What's wrong with me?! Go sleep -.-

p/s: My brother's 'gf-to-be' is TERRIBLE. And he's like 14?! What's wrong with him. I hate that girl. I shall disown my brother if he gets together with her. HAHAS.
And her blog is bloody pink (not like mine isn't but mine is mostly white) and she openly talks about "being very happy sitting beside TAN CHIN GUAN. Now he's all mine. Go away JUNE TAN"
WTH. Crazy woman.

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^{- 2008-06-06 @ 9:12 a.m.}

My attachment has ended. I don't really know how i feel. I'm quite glad it's over, because there is really nothing i can do there except follow the doctors around (if they are not too busy that is). I was in the operating theatre in Day 2. The operation procedure was alot less scary than expected. I mean, i expected guts to spill out, but obviously they didn't. The second operation was super shocking. I went into the OT and the man was COVERED in blood. I almost vomitted on the spot. It was until the next day that i realised it wasn't blood. IT WAS IODINE. Stupid me. (FYI: Iodine is used to sterilize the body so that it's very clean during the operation)
I can't say the life of a doctor is exactly very interesting. Since my attachment, i had never taken my lunch in peace. Every 10 minutes, the doctor will receive a call about a patient (?) and then he will have to rush back within 20 minutes, meaning their lunch break is NOT regular and NOT sufficient (At 20 minutes? That's like shorter than a primary school kid's recess)
The third day was fun though! Dr Low is ridiculously nice. Not only did he treat me to a cup of fruit juice and lunch (=) I'm easily bribed), he is really humourous. He tells alot of jokes, and he builds really good rapport with the patients and nurses! I really respect him alot. If i was to become a doctor, i want to be like him. The doctor that i was attached to in the afternoon was really funny (in a sarcastic way). He kept asking me if i'm very very sure i'll go into medicine (?), but to tell the truth, there are no absolutes at 18. I don't know if i will change my mind after the release of my A level results? I don't know. But he's quite nice, and he told me he just stayed in the hospital for 34 HOURS!! Poor him. He even let me play with the machine used for endoscopy. COOL RIGHT. HAHAS. YAY. I love my last day of attachment.
By the way, i'm going to VIENNA INTERNATIONAL BUFFET TOMORROW. WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ~

p/s: I just went to Swissotel Merchant Court to have high tea. The food is REALLY BAD. Don't waste your money there, seriously.

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^{- 2008-06-02 @ 7:06 p.m.}

Today is my first day of attachment at NUH. To be honest, the life of a doctor is alot more mundane than expected, especially in the morning where they have to make endless rounds around the wards to check on each patient's condition. I mean, it will be alot more fun if i understand what they are talking about but i don't. Lol, but i think i got the rough idea. Ironically, i didn't feel very scared when i saw many patients whose limbs are amputated, but i felt really sad for them, especially when i can hear some of them crying in their wards. SIGH.

I was really really bored by the way since i was merely following the MO around, but thank god she is REALLY NICE, and quite funny. LOL. The fun part starts when i got to sit in in their department meeting. HAHAS. I shan't disclose the details here, but it was damn funny.

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^{- 2008-05-31 @ 7:46 a.m.}

Yesterday marked the official end of Y-CAS. I think everyone had fun, especially the participants. They are like...really bonded? And it's really quite amazing because their age range is rather big (14-17).

It was pouring yesterday. We had to walk one BIG round around the Salt Centre to get to the bus stop. When we were at the car park, Brit had this crazy idea. She wanted to hitch a ride -.- I felt so embarassed when she stuck out her thumb that i turned away, knowing full well that the guy in the car will just dao us. Problem is, he did not! HAHAS. He's really nice, AND, he really gave us a ride to the bus stop. The funniest part was, when we alighted at the bus stop, his wife was there with his 2 other children (there's this SUPER CUTE 6 yr old in the car) and his wife stared in shock for like 10 seconds. She must be like "wth is 3 teenage girls doing in my car". Ah wells.

I reached home at 7:00, much earlier than expected since i only reached home at 9 on the first and second day of YCAS. Bathe. Ate. Then i slept at 8:30 because i was so freaking tired. *Yawnz* And i missed my last episode of Rhythm of Life. I'm so sad now.

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^{- 2008-05-28 @ 8:12 p.m.}

Life has been REALLY busy these days. It's Y-CAS now, and it's REALLY fun. Okay. There's nothing much logistics has to do now, but i really like slacking in the black box with its full blast aircon while the programmes people have their world cafe on top. HAH. Lucky me! Not like my job is damn slack either. I've gotta type and do hundreds of certificates/name tags/signages. I can almost memorise all the participants' names! So people, once you get your certs, you better thank me X) HAHAS. I love doing certs for people, no idea why though.

I think my exco is crazy. We're just doing stupid things in the black box, like stealing food into the black box because we are somehow not allowed to eat before the participants and THEY ARE KOPING ALL MY CHOCOLATE ECLAIRS. So, greedy exco girls went to take a plate and dump loads of desserts on it and sneaked it into the black box. HAHAHS. Greedy us.

Two more days to the end of YCAS. I have this sudden feeling of nostalgia. I really love YCAS. It's bloody fun lar =) Okay lar. I'm not like poor BH, have to go around buying vegetarian food. HAHAS.

I think i'm really screwed for blocks? Haven't started studying AND the whole of next week i'll be at NUH looking at people's intestines (pukes) so i won't be free at all =( But i'm totally looking forward to my attachment. I wonder how i'll feel in the operation theatre. Maybe they'll ask me to help hold the intestine or something. Oh gosh.

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^{- 2008-05-13 @ 5:25 p.m.}

It's been so long since i've blogged. been really busy lately, with H3 exam, SPA and everything but i'm glad it's all over :D. Coming next will be blocks 2. Hope i don't screw it up this time.

OHH. I CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT TO BLOG ABOUT MY JUNIORS WINNING NATIONALS YES :D:D Oh. And everyone, please go and volunteer yourselves for T2CIP Day. It'll be fun painting walls at IMH, plus free food and drinks :D:D

I have great plans for myself after As. I wanted to go to Japan badly today. You know, it's that kind of feeling you get once in a while. You know you want to be somewhere else, get what i mean, and it was this sudden feeling i got during lecture today that "hey! i want to go to sanrio land", which is quite retarded. Firstly, i don't even know if i spelt sanrio correctly. Its the toy manufacturer that manufactures hello kitty and friends. Secondly, i don't even love Japan that much. Last time i've been there, i only remembered many many many temples and a few pathetic rides at Disney Land but that's all. I have no idea why i kept thinking of Sanrio land o.0 I shall go there after As! :D

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^{- 2008-04-22 @ 6:39 p.m.}

I just need to show off my birthday present. IT'S DAMN NICE. I can't believe cockroach, dragonfly, housefly and ladybug spent so long on it :D and i guess i was quite dumb when they were lying to me about having a meeting in school when i saw cockroach's fellow fencer at the bus-stop -.- I shall post the photos next time, when i feel like transferring them out of my phone. Yay.
Oh. Speaking of which, i almost died when the staff of Manhanttan Fish Market walked out with a birthday cake and they sang the birthday song (with my fellow insect-friends) so loudly in the restaurant that i bet half the floor of PS can hear it. He almost brought the entire staff out, thank goodness he didn't. Yay I love the birthday cake =)
Oh! And i finally changed my pencil case!! (Thanks to bin, chuan, maine and shonda). I love it lar. I can't stop staring at my new pencil case and the erm, super bimbotic keychain that goes along with it. HAHAS. And i only realised there were letters in the file very very late. Doh. I'm so stupid.

Hahas. THANKS EVERYONE :D:D I love all the presents and cards and everything, and those who remembered my birthday and sent me smses. You guys rock =)

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^{- 2008-04-14 @ 4:23 p.m.}

zzz. My blocks results suck, big time. Hahas, and i'm not very upset about it. I shall stop trying to find excuses for myself. Next time i shall mug.

Yay. Got A for PW, and so did everyone else in my class, and the other 98% of the level. Amazing right? I love Mrs Ong, really.

Oh. Had class outing on Saturday. It's been so long since we had one. It was so-so i guess, but i managed to spend 3/4 of my birthday money from ah ma :( zzz. I must stop spending money on pretty stuff like accessories. I think i'm starting to speak like a bimbo now o.0 Oh dear.

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^{- 2008-03-31 @ 9:18 p.m.}

zzz. My second S in history (the previous one was for bio blocks). How could i have gotten a S for chemistry?! Sigh. I used to think (used to) that my chem was good you know. My lowest ever was a B but S?! But then again, that was secondary school. Sigh. I was rather taken aback by my results. As in, i expected myself to do badly. I also thought i was going to get U instead, but what struck me was, everyone around me did so well which is like bleargh. You know, you can screw up, but as long as everyone screws up with you. LOL. Sigh. Whatever lar. I was just going to go into the "it's not my fault i got H3 the whole week thing" but ultimately its still my fault because to be honest, i had time. If i haven't touch that three story books, or decided to fool around during H3, i could have allocated more precious time to study for chem! (and math, yes).

11 for days before my H3 report is due and i haven't started. omigosh. I'm starting to feel the heat now. I have no idea what aspirin does to Apo A, and i don't really care if Apo A can somehow transport cholesterol so you don't get atherosclerosis and i'm pissed with myself for talking in this weird language. H3 mates were saying "why the heck must we write a phD paper" which i totally agree. The effects of ApoA is like barely known and how can we research into something thats "barely known". If we make such astounding discovery, are they going to award us with the Nobel Prize? HAHAS OMG i'm uttering nonsense. I think i'm too stressed. Hai. Screw H3. I'm kinda regretting taking it, like wth, i don't understand a single thing about NMR and whatever else Prof Yoon, Law, Ravi, Dr K Yu, Mu YuGuang or whoever else is saying. HAH I HAVE MANAGED TO MEMORISE THEIR SURNAMES.

After H3, i don't want to step into NTU again. Let's pray i don't end up in NTU, shall we?

By the way, my long awaited korean movie is going to be released in korea in 3 days time! Isn't that amazing? After my long wait for two whole years, but yeah, i still have to wait another year before it comes to Singapore. Sigh. My life sucks.

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^{- 2008-03-24 @ 11:18 a.m.}

While i was studying for bio...

(This is completely random)
On non-epistatic gene interaction, we are taught that chickens have four different type of combs (that thingy on their heads) namely - Rose, Pea, Walnut and Single and the pictures were printed on the paper.

Beside the pictures, there are a few lines of words:

Mabel: mm....yummy
Yk: er yucks? -.-
Mabel: I <3 Walnut

(Random scribling during class when we're not allowed to talk but we are damn bored)
HAHAHS OMG now everytime i am studying that page i think of mabel eating up the chickens' combs? YUCKS YUCKS. Disgusting o.0

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^{- 2008-03-22 @ 10:57 a.m.}

This is getting completely out of hand. I'm so screwed for blocks. Let's welcome my first E/S/U in history for chem (bloody hell. i hasn't goteen below a B for chem in my entire life?) I'm so angry with myself. It's not that i don't know how to do, it's because there's absolutely no time so i didn't touch this 13 Marks question -.- Nice. I blanked out for the entire chem mcq paper, i hope i get at least 10/30? I don't even know what i'm doing lar. Stupid wonder girls. How dare you inflitrate into my brain during my precious chem paper? "Tell me, tell me, dadada Tell me" Hai. Whatever.

Btw, i just finished my Bio Spa Skill A. YES. No more spa till the rest of my life (for Bio at least). Spent the entire day yesterday mugging for Spa, so it better be worth it. (and i'm glad i managed to spot the question correctly. yay. wonderful me) I'm still on Control for Bio (for blocks) btw. Let's see who's more screwed than me. There's like this entire stack of untouched GBV and i cant remember a single ratio, like wth is 9:3:3:1. Aiya. I can't be bothered already. I'm like a freaking J2 and i can't be bothered about exams. Someone please knock some sense into my head.

Can't wait till the end of blocks X) I'm going to some hotel to eat. yes. i love eating =)

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^{- 2008-03-14 @ 8:00 p.m.}

It's already friday, and i don't feel prepared for blocks - at all.

The last five days were -sigh-. It was hard trying to mug while doing the experiment. It was even harder when i had to mug, and at the same time, listen to the bio lecture. It was horrendous. I feel like giving up. Anyway, they say blocks are really hard, so it doesn't make much difference, nor sense, to continue mugging like crazy, right?

All the poor H3 people :( Right after blocks, we have to rush out many many pages worth of report on the experiment we did (what experiment?)because it constitutes 20% of our A-level marks and it requires alot of research. I mean -alot-. I have to camp at NLB one day to read up on all the stuff on molecular genetics. =(

My life sucks.

p.s. The trailer for doremifasolatido is OUT. I've been waiting for the movie since forever. Check it out on youtube by typing "doremifasolatido" on the search panel.

p.s.s. The main lead is ultra good-looking. That's an added incentive to go check out the trailer =) [note: I didn't specify exactly who i was referring to. Could be either the female or the male lead]

p.s.s.s For the soft copy of the trailer, please look for me on msn and i'll send it to you. You can view it full-screen, btw.

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^{- 2008-03-02 @ 10:21 p.m.}

Gosh. It's been so long since i've blogged, i didn't even know they changed the layout for diaryland. I was like... "did i just enter the wrong address?"

Anyway, 2 weeks to blocks. OMG. I haven't started. OMG. I don't have March Holidays. OMG. Not because i'll be studying for blocks, but i will be practically camping at NTU for all 6 days. OMG. I'm so dead. OMG. Blocks is 10 percent of my prelims marks. OMG.

Anyway, i've watched P.S. I love you. It's brilliant x a million. I loved it to the core. Sighh. If only such fantastic guys exist in real life. He's such a sweet husband, really.
I desperately need some TV. I'm absolutely deprived. It's like, it's impossible to complete your homework you know. You thought you finished all of them, then the next day you go to school, ka-boom, you get another stack. Gosh. J2 life is quite disgusting, no wonder everyone hates JC life. (Okay, not everyone, but at least all my cousins do. Most of my friends do too, i think).

Btw, i'm on my way to being a mugger. This is the oath i made, and i shall make it a reality. I shall mug everyday from today onwards. HAH. (yeah, like that will happen) but at least i'll try.

GO MUGGER! I WANT TO MUG.
It's so hard to mug, really. I just spent 5 minutes worth of precious time typing this stupid entry when i could have been studying for chem spa Skill D.

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^{- 2008-02-18 @ 6:05 p.m.}

If you don't already know, my grandfather passed away last week. I received the news during econs lecture, and after half an hour, it finally sunk in. I was never close to him, but i felt emptiness, and immense sadness for a short while. Somehow, it reminded me of my grandmother who passed away last year and i loved her very much. So, it felt like i was experiencing it all over again.

The funeral has been both mentally and physically training. There were tons of homework due. I had to do them during the funeral itself. I couldn't attend alot of SAW meetings because of the funeral, and i felt horrible because i'm one of the in-charge(s) (vice in-charge) and i'm not doing as much work as i should.

Sigh. Enough about depressing stuff going on in my life. Anyway, ELLEN'S BACK (YES) with her cool (weird?) orange hair. It's been soooooo long since i've seen her. I missed her like crazy, and she (ahahahs oh man are you reading this) is speaking like an australian now, with words like "coolness, peeps and babes" which she NEVER used. Ah well.

By the way, i have an econs test tomorrow and i haven't started because i just came back from SAW and Piano Lesson. I have alot of uncompleted homework, but, but, but i have attachment from Wed to Fri! (SO NO SCHOOL. HAH) but i'm missing alot because this week is SAW :( Sigh. This feels weird.

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^{- 2008-02-11 @ 7:29 p.m.}

Gosh, chinese new year is over already! To think i wanted to study for blocks right after chinese new year because my entire march holiday is taken up to do human experimentation (just kidding) at ntu for all six days of the week, cept on sunday, but now, i'm completely not in the mood, and my gp is dying! For some strang reason, it has been deteriorating ever since after september holidays. There's something wrong with me, really. Maybe i'm like a character on heroes, suddenly discovering that i have some sort of super power, only mine involves memory loss and bad use of language which i'm trying very hard to correct.

Anyway, Chinese new year has been a blast! I love Chinese New Year. It's like the only time of the year where i can truly relax, and forget about school life. Come to think of it, i haven't finished my compre! (crap) I shall start on it, soon, probably on Wednesday or something. The amount i got this year from angboas is exactly the same as what i got last year. Plus, this year, i only lost one dollar from ban luck, cause we all resorted to playing cheat instead which i won cause yuan ping sucks at the game. HAHAS. And he keeps accusing me of cheating when i didn't. I'm brilliant at that game, really.

Valentine's day is coming soon! It's so exciting! This is my first year preparing proper gifts for everyone, and it feels damn good doing that, wrapping 30 something gifts, writing 20 something messages and sticking 30 something hand-made stickers on chocolates for those whom i'm not that close to, which means 60 something people will receive gifts from me. Cool eh :) I haven't included the presents for the guys in my class from mabel, zhenling and me. I think some of them are gonna get a shock of their life or die in happiness when they see our present, but still, making them is fun, but i'm spending a hell lot of time making them. Sigh. Hahas. And if any of you guys are reading this, you must appreciate our hard work okay.

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^{- 2008-02-03 @ 9:38 a.m.}

27 dresses is amazing! i think katherine heigl nailed it, perfectly. i love james marsden (only for this movie because he sucks in x-men and enchanted)!. the final wedding is so beautiful.

oh, my new professor has a cool name. lars norklenskloid. i love his surname. love it (but he doesn't look like a norklenskloid if you get what i mean). i love his lectures btw. (hahas only my fellow molecular bio mates can understand)

oh. tristan and isolde is even more amazing. GO JAMES FRANCO. for once, i actually like him. i love that movie. shall watch it again some time.

btw, i've got a new phone. at the same time, i lost a million numbers. thank god i've got back-up. i'm all the way to letter R already. two more pages of names (at font size 10) to go. nice.

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^{- 2008-01-24 @ 7:42 p.m.}

For the first time in history, SCGS produced our very own top scorer!

*applauds*

Anyway, my junior class is scary -.- (okay. at least the cat high boys are). ALL three of them got 9A1s? That is like....ownage. I heard one of the three got 11A1s for prelims, so he said he "flunked" his Os. Ah well. Wasted.

I feel so zi bei about my O level results now. Hai. I should have worked harder....

Cloverfield
^{- 2008-01-22 @ 7:15 p.m.}

Cloverfield is the most amazing movie - ever. It is so different from the other movies because the entire movie is filmed from a guy holding a camera, and it is really exciting to see the camera move so much that i've got a migrane. It is even more thrilling to realise that the monster looks amazingly adorable. At the same time, I couldn't help but admire the director's fantastic skills at incorporating out-of-reality scenes in a horror movie, especially the entire part of how the guy tried to run away from the monster and still make an effort to film the entire process. It is even more breathtaking that there's an invisible person playing around with the camera filming the movie.

It's just so brilliant you know. I can now proudly tell my parents that I've watched a horror film and I laughed so loudly at the non-existent ending that the horror film has turned into a comedy.

I totally love Cloverfield.
Not.

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^{- 2008-01-20 @ 10:03 a.m.}

The Angel and Mortal game is really fun :) I'm writing to my mortal now, and she/he/he-she(HAHAS) has absolutely no idea who I am. I am successful! (to a certain extent) because of my failed attempt to pretend to be someone else. Ah Well.

I know who my angel is already. It's so boring. I mean, he made it so obvious, but i think he's really nice. He's a drama mama (er papa?) too!

It was SRJCs yesterday. I think I'm so nice because I'm so tired yet i stayed for all the debates (Just kidding!) but i love supporting my juniors. I'm so proud of them! 3 straight wins to the semis, and losing narrowly to VJC. They're fantastic! I didn't meet anyone my age (?) yesterday except for like Kristi. AIYA. AUNTY. DON'T MEET YOU ALSO NEVER MIND. HAHAS. (Ok Whatever. I'm being lame. Stupid Kristi How :p).

I can't wait for February! It's New Year, SAW and IMCB (which means many days without school for me. HAH) School's really boring recently, especially Econs. I love bio lectures because the topic i'm studying now is 1) relatively easy 2) very interesting. As for chem and math, it's the usual. GP, recently, is FUN. I love it when GP lessons turn into history lessons. Videos on revolutions are fun! (Its just that we have alot of homework. Hai. But my GP sucks. Ah well. I think i need the practice)

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^{- 2008-01-18 @ 10:19 p.m.}

i've lost my voice -.- its so nasal and husky now,

but sharon says its SEXY. HAHAS.
sigh. i want my voice back. i feel horrible - not being able to talk.

anyway, i want to dispel the urban myth about how university professors don't care because that is so not true. the entire lt today got scolded constantly by the professor. and he was being very sarcastic all the way:

" i know you guys are really intelligent! and i'm so sorry you have to listen to someone who is less intelligent talk about myostatin (some gene that regulates skeletal muscle growth) " -.-

" it should be really easy! its only year 2 undergraduate syllabus you know "
(wth? i thought H3 was merely year 1 undergraduate syllabus..but year 2? hell. i hope i don't fail the exam)

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^{- 2008-01-16 @ 8:25 p.m.}

Presenting to you....the new ARES FAC DANCE 2008!

I love sharon.

Anyway, i fell sick today. I could barely breathe (and talk), and i couldn't stop coughing. I took my dad's flu medicine in the morning and i didn't read the labels. Apparently, it causes drowsiness. omg. I almost fell asleep during Bio Lecture, and you cannot fall asleep during Bio Lecture. :p

I got into IMCB, which means i don't have to go to school for three WHOLE DAYS. Gosh. I'm so happy now.

Btw, i just had training over at Nanyang today. I felt super tired eventhough it was the juniors speaking. I think school is draining the energy out of me. Guess what? I don't have to go for PE tom! YES!

I just realised my previous entry sounded weird. It wasn't meant to target at this certain group of people but apparently they thought so. In case you guys are reading this, this is just a clarification on my part =)

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^{- 2008-01-15 @ 8:00 p.m.}

Sometimes, we try - we try our very best to give you the best we could. We may not be ideal, nor perfect, but we thought you understood. We thought that after two months of working together, you will learn to appreciate. Now, i realise i'm just slogging my butt off for some moron. Guess what? Now you can self-destruct, and don't come crying for help.

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^{- 2008-01-13 @ 8:32 p.m.}

I think i need rest. Last week was irritating. The entire week is fully packed and it felt horrible.

I only knew that there is a CIP Exco booth on Tuesday (one day before the exhibition) so my shopping trip with bin was cancelled. On Wednesday, we met our junior class for the first time. They're all quite cute and funny and the Cat High Boys look scarily alike. They even look like Freddie. Hahas!

Double Wacko was uber fun! It's been so long since our class really did anything together.

A few notable moments:
Nick Foo's introduction (My name is nick foo but you can call me tonight. What the)
Mabel's crazy cheering.
Kevin calling lynn all the time. (Jo - Lynn) LOL.
Sherhan trying very hard to answer questions (BAE YONG JUN. GOSH)

I had my first H3 lesson over at RJ on Friday so i missed our traditional senior-junior gathering at Zen Garden which frustrated me - alot. Trudged my way to RJ because i've already had 2 and a half hours of Bio and I'm feeling faintish already. Felt quite sick during the lecture and attempted to sleep for half an hour because I've already learnt what's being thought for the first hour. The professor finally realised he's going too slow and he started to speed things up, and that's when all the confusion comes in because I have no idea what he's talking about. The notes really sucks because it's all diagrams, and when the professor starts using biology terms i couldn't get any of the spelling right.

By the time i went back to school, it was eight. Campfire was quite okay. Ares Dance ROCKS. We proceeded to KAP later at around 10 to wait for the juniors to come over. I felt sick by that time already and I slept in KAP for a short while. When i woke up, i realised i lost my wallet :( I was heartbroken so I couldn't be bothered to talk to the juniors and went home immediately because I've lost ez-link card, my various membership cards (one which i can exchange for a $10 VCD voucher), my mum's NETTS (she was so damn pissed off) and changmin' photo (new). SIGH. Ah well.

I have training tomorrow. (Sigh). Why, Oh Why, is my life so sad. I have no life =( Do all JC2s feel that way?

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^{- 2008-01-07 @ 7:35 p.m.}

OMG. Today was so funny. I couldn't stop laughing, like honestly. During chem lab session, this was what happened:

Nich pointing to Kevin: Do you think he's shuai?
Zhenling: Harr? Er, what type of shuai?
(After which she didn't really answer)
*Stone*
Nich: Then do you think i'm hot?
Zhenling: AR? NO!
(WAHAHAHAS. OMG. Classic reply)
Kevin: At least she still asked what type of shuai i belong to, yours was a direct no.

(LOL. I couldn't stop laughing lar. Crazy bunch of people)

I had my first debate training session of 2008. We were supposed to help the juniors, but it didn't really work out because they have orientation so we spent 2 hours listening to Tan Wah Jiam's really cool talk about pedra branca, falk islands etc. It was really enriching. I feel so smart now. Ha Ha.

Anyway, i spent the later half of training copying math answers cause i didn't bother to do DE since there weren't any answers available. After which me and Xiao Wen went to look at the J1 juniors dancing to the disgusting Hwa Chong traditional dance and i couldn't help but feel amused. Can't believe i actually did all those dances in J1. LOL.

Met April on the bus and she did damn well for her IB end-of-years (equivalent to A Levels). I feel really happy for her. I hope she gets into Medicine though, so if one day i really decide to take Medicine and somehow manage to get in, she'll be my senior again! So cool =)

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^{- 2008-01-06 @ 12:55 p.m.}

I thought that hiding all my feelings
Was protecting my heart
So I never built anything
High enough to fall apart
And what I was looking for
Didn't know where to start
I can't believe this is happening

The day I met you
I said welcome to the rest of my life
Cause you created a new meaning
And all the emptiness died
I was afraid to give love another try
Oh I can't believe this is happening

I know that this might get me in trouble
But it's time I let my fences down
Cause I am no longer afraid of a struggle
Oh I'll overcome
I'll overcome

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^{- 2008-01-04 @ 5:37 p.m.}

LOL. I was just looking through 07S7A's videos on youtube. It's so weird, and funny, really, to think about last year and all the great times. I can't help but post them online :)

I think we are damn cool (and stupid -.-)

you know the one where they showed 5th/5. HAHAS. THATS ME. LOL. But that was at the start of the game. If i didn't remember wrongly, i got first in the end. YAY :D

THIS IS SO DAMN FUNNY.

THIS IS WORSE. HAHAHAHS. OMG WUSHU PRES NO FACE LIAO.

This is so embarassing lar. I didn't even know it was on youtube until i accidentally chanced upon it. dots.

LOL NICH (The boy who was that little boy who went "That's my ball!" at PCK opening song...who would ever thought he turned out to be like that. LOL) I wonder what will happen if he goes back to mediacorp. hmm.

That's all for now. Too many and too lazy to post. Felt like posting them cause its like 2008 all of a sudden. We used to be so high o.0.

Anyway, I realised i can't go for campfire because i've got a stupid H3 Induction over at RJ next friday. Damn sad lar. HAI. There's like 140 people and er, we are going to have orientation? Please say no. I don't even know 1/4 of the hc people that got in, and most probably none from rj and the other schools.Sian. And i realised my fridays are disgusting because i'll have five and a half hours of BIO. During the march hols, i will have to go all the way to NTU for lab sessions and its at BOON LAY. HAI. J2 life sucks, really.

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^{- 2008-01-02 @ 4:55 p.m.}

first day of school.
fantastic -.-

i just realised that some things never change, be it where we always sit for class or how the class interacts. it's really weird i guess. anyway, the bio test is haha. i don't even know the word to describe it, but it was great fun crapping my way through, and surprisingly, some are correct!

got moved from the last row to the front row for math lecture. sigh. no more stoning during lectures, dang. today's math lecture was completely incomprehensible, maybe my brain cells sort of degraded during holiday for watching too much tv. we changed our ct too, to alexander ho. kind of weird really, not seeing ms yang walk into ct session but i guess i'll slowly get used to it.

oh. i relinquished my position as the treasurer for the class. phew. it feels great all of a sudden. i don't have to carry 300 bucks with me everyday anymore! it really sucks, knowing you have so much money, and losing it means you have to pay back the money. gosh.

for the first time in jc life, the canteen suddenly looked so colourful. usually its all brown, and during orientation last year it was predominantly brown and white. but this year i saw alot of colours. hmm. wonder how my junior class will be like. don't really like this feeling of being old and er, going through orientation once again with your junior class (and playing disgusting games like sharing the same sweet. oh gawd) but at least its something to look forward to :)

will have pe tomorrow. oh god. please, please, please, no running for 2.4km. i'll just faint.

2008.
cheers!
(i hope this year's better than last year)

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^{- 2007-12-31 @ 8:55 p.m.}

crap. crap. crap. crap. crap. crap. crap.

i'm trying to resist typing the sh** word here but seriously, what the sh**? its one more day to school and i just realised i have a bio test on the first day of school?! hullo?! okay. i knew there was a test, but i thought only the last five chapters were tested and i only realised today its the ENTIRE syllabus. sh**. i took two whole weeks the last time to study the entire bio syllabus for promos and what the, now i've got one day left. woo hoo. brilliant.

whatever. i can't be bothered anymore. i just hope i don't fail too badly, and *cross fingers*, if foo becomes our bio tutor, i hope she doesn't kill all of us first. hahas. yay 07s7A. slackers rock. lol.

i bought my first shirt today! i'm so happy! as in, that shirt isn't my only shirt (obviously) but its the first time i'm paying for a shirt myself since my mum usually pays for them. and mr platinum card bought 4 today. hahas. woah. me and mab got the same shirt btw, zhenling didn't want to get one cause according to her its ugly. sigh. -.-

okay. i shall go read my notes now. whatever lar. this sucks.

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^{- 2007-12-29 @ 10:28 p.m.}

School is starting in...three days. Gosh. School is fun (er though rarely) but i prefer to rot at home watching tv. The thought of mugging (for A levels) makes me giddy and i'm actually starting to see stars in the double helixes of DNA. The numbers scrawled on my math assignment don't make any sense and as usual, i've decided to leave many many many blanks in my answer sheet and pray that when the teacher checks, at least she thinks i belong to the stupid side but not the lazy side, which means i probably won't get scolded :).

I finally finished my I and I. Thank God. Its the only piece of assignment that burns my hand when i touch it. Its like, those sarcastic cartoons on the cover page aren't that funny when you realise that you have to write stupid essays on these brainless issues. Like the whole concept of rights. So damn outdated, and over debated. And why debate on such issues when you can never reach a satisfying conclusion. Another question was worse because it asked us to justify why war crimes should be punished or forgiven. That is like so undebatable, so why write an essay on it. -.-

Had scgs debate gathering today. Ate at some tai-tai place (English Rose Cafe. wth?) and had, oh, you know, the usual, scones and english tea because oh yeah, i'm from scgs and i'm destined to lead a tai-tai life and oh yes, the scones are so worth that 10 bucks. Oh please. I hereby declare i hate high tea. Its a complete waste of money and bloody hell, scones. I don't get whats the hype with scones or why its considered a social premium that you eat these regularly. Please lar. Go to a normal bakery and you can eat them at less than 1 dollar. Tai-tais should just abandon scones and go for like shark fins or something and so those English Cafes can stop extorting money out of their customers.

Btw, why is everyone i know either in cambridge or oxford? Aiya whatever. Maybe i should just stay in Singapore. Ah. One more year to graduation and i still have no idea what i want to be. Lawyers? Thats like debating. Doing that for the rest of my life is so eee. Doctors? Er, i don't exactly like to cut people up ya know. AHHH. The road of undecided...SIGH.

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^{- 2007-12-29 @ 7:04 a.m.}

looking at my previous entries, i realised i've watched almost all the movies that are worth watching. hmm.

anyway, this whole week has been a blast, which is why i really love christmas! have been going out everday. muahahas and won't stop till school re-opens which means i'm going out today too. yay.

watched i am legend on monday. cool story. cool actor. cool dog. cool screwed up human. cool setting. uncool ending. that is like the most cliche ending i have ever seen, completely threw me off my seat for the wrong reason and PLUS, come to think of it, i was rather bored during the only will smith scenes. for like three quarter of the show, you hear ONE person talking and it got boring after a while.

tuesday - family christmas party! ooh yay. its been so long since i've seen some of my cousins. the food was damn good. i ate like 10 fried wanton. :D we had two christmas log cakes, one plate of jelly specially made into the shape of santa's face, three different kind of deserts, fried beehoon, ham and cheese sandwiches (i made them! hah :D) and other kind of sandwiches, curry puffs...ahh the list is endless but the food's really good. i couldn't stop eating -.- then we played bingo, as in the gambling kind of bingo where u give one dollar each to get a bingo card with 5 X 5 rows and so 25 numbers raning from 1 - 99, yeah, so certain numbers don't appear on your card. basically, me and my brother lost the first two round and we have this idiotic cousin who won for three straight times, which means he earned 30 bucks (30 bucks! wahlao). then his gf won the 4th time. like dots. then i got my dad to play and he won straight away -.- er, okay. ahahahas.

btw, the xmas presents i got from my aunts this year are kinda cool. compared to previous ears, at least i can use those they gave me this year, but i have too many pairs of earrings for my own good.

the day after i went shopping with my hc girl mates. hoo! and i ate ajisen ramen! yay. but i didn't get anything in the end while the rest all bought something. two of them spent almost 70-80 bucks, damn zai, hahas.

thursday and yesterday merely involved going out as well, and eating good food. sakae sushi and some hong kong restaurant! im damn broke -.-

ohoh. i earned 20 bucks. im so happy! its the first time im earning money because i worked hard for it. i tutored my cousin for almost 3 hours (P5 english) yayy. tutoring is quite fun, but damn tiring, esp english, gotta be a dictionary all the time, except that im only 1/1000 of a dictionary. lol.

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^{- 2007-12-23 @ 7:35 a.m.}

i've finally got to watch the golden compass! (eventhough i asked a million people and they have either watched it or they hate fantasy). i was really excited and when the show started i could feel my heart pumping very quickly. the show i've been dying to watch ya know!

and the show kinda sucked -.-. firstly, the girl's kinda irritating. her acting seems forced. secondly, since i didn read the book, i expected nicole kidman to erm, appear more than that polar bear. thirdly, the ending is just wth. so yeah.

i've also watched national treasue: book of secrets. its fantastic! i really love it, omg, eventhough i preferred the first one. but ahahas. yay nicholas cage!

i can't wait for next week. so many parties and gatherings! so that means i dont have time to do my i and i. okay. im dead-ed.

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^{- 2007-12-16 @ 5:21 p.m.}

Malacca

It's been so long since i've been there, maybe 4 years? (ever since the sec 1 trip). I barely recognized any of the monuments, or even the name of the hotel i stayed in. The only thing i could remember was that the hotel is haunted (its true!) because it faces the graveyard and you can actually hear weird noises. (okay. thats not true :p) No weird noises just spoilt toilet bowls which flush by themselves for eight straight hours. My return to Malacca feels weird. Firstly, my impression of it changed completely. It used to feel so good staying there - the food, the shopping and the historical monuments! Now, its like some ulu crap place where you get stuck in traffic jams for 4 straight hours because those idiots can't drive or how the shopping malls are scarily alike to those in Singapore that i don't even see the point of buying anything there. Even the newly built river looks like Clarke Quay, bloody hell. Lol.

I went to A Famosa afterwards. The water world is erm, so-so. I played the same rides at least 6 times each, because everything else was just dots. I didn't get to go to the Cowboy Land though. My 9 year old cousin kept begging me to go with him (its not like its within walking distance. lol). A Famosa is really pathetic. The land is freaking HUGE. Its so Huge its like the entire Bukit Panjang (maybe abit bigger). The bungalow section is freaking disgusting. The whole place smells musty and the beds looked like they haven't been cleaned for like 50 years. The resort section looks better but the room is pathetically small. In the end, we decided to rent a Villa instead eventhough its freaking expensive. Not that its that fantastic, but at least it looked clean.

Its finally back to reality. I don't like this feeling, not at all. That stack of homework facing me really makes me feel sick. I don't know whats this fuss of making us revise our work over and over again. Training's resumed back to normal, and so are the cip exco meetings. Quite sian really, 4 days in a week stuck in school and one day dedicated to my piano lesson. I barely have any time left. SIGH.

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^{- 2007-12-03 @ 9:39 a.m.}

Last week was really FUN! Like, finally.

Thursday

I went to watch HERO. It was quite nice i guess. I was really expecting Lee Byung Hoon to do some amazing stuff you know, since he's a special guest and well, i expected him to be the second male lead. Anyway, he spoke for less than 5 minutes in korean (HERO is a japanese movie) and apparently, the two leads didn't understand him. To sum it all up, he was basically muttering to himself three korean lines in the movie, lasting for less than 5 minutes. I was like -.-". Fine. So i decided to wait to see if he'll pop up somewhere in Japan, and he didn't! What is the point of hiring a bigshot like him when you can get another korean who i believe can speak that three lines like him at like a quarter of the price they've paid to hire him? Dohh.

I went out for dinner later with another bunch of friends to celebrate Joshua's birthday. It was really hilarious. We managed to get into Joshua's house with the help of his brother and we decided to sit on the first floor and wait. (LOL) Louis managed to ask him to come down (somehow) and he did (LOL!) in his pyjamas. He stoned for like three seconds and he ran up again (HAHAS) because he went to change his pants. Omgawd. LOL. We played monopoly later on and i was WINNING until the last round and i owed Esmond money so i became bankrupt. Dang. Haha. I guess i lost and i was like "Okay! Let's go home!"

Friday

My first training session after like so many months! I met my juniors for the first time. Didn't talk to them much. LOL. Basically, all of us didn't really talk to them and i realised i kinda missed training. Not my training, but training others seem more fun you know. Just like when i was in Sec 4. HAH. What wonderful times...

Saturday

I had dinner at Jack's place and i ate Lobster and the whole meal cost $40. o.0 WTH. I didn't order Lobster in the first place. I wanted Crayfish! Stupid waiter...

Sunday

I went to look for my mum after her yoga session (Don't ask me why she signed up) and we went to eat at some cafe! It's the second cafe (the first being marche - okay. i know that's a restaurant but anyway) that has ROSTI! OMG. HAHAS. I love the Rosti there.

Later, i dragged my mum to Harvey Norman so i can get my DVD player. Apparently, it doesn't have that function where it can playback from the point you last stopped. I was damn pissed so i called the Harvey Norman guy and damn him lar. Whatever. He was like

"Mdm, your DVD player is 95 bucks right? (It was 99 btw). If you want your DVD player to be that wonderful, why don't you get a higher-end one?"

I swore if i were there at Harvey Norman I`ll call his manager out. Seriously. What kind of service attitude is that? Firstly, that function is the most basic function for like a DVD player. Even my 4 year old DVD player has that stupid function. Even my computer does! Secondly, I wanted a higher-end one but this lady recommended this 99 bucks one cause, according to her, has all functions except the karoake function which i don't really need so its not much different from the higher-end ones.

What happened in the end was that i brought the DVD player to Harvey Norman and demanded a refund and i left. If i'm free, maybe, i'll write a complaint letter to the headquarters. Honestly, the guy deserved to be fired.

After all that drama, when i went home, the lift broke down -.- What the. Since my other lift is under renovation, i have to climb all the way up to the 8th floor. What a unlucky day.

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^{- 2007-11-26 @ 11:34 a.m.}

It's been quite a while since i've blogged. I've had the best pasta ever last week at spageddies (spaggedies? heck). The crayfish is fantastic. I can't wait to taste that crayfish again!

I've managed to watch two movies last week.

Stardust
It's really beautiful. Its not entirely groundbreaking or brilliant, but i've really enjoyed the movie.

Enchanted
HAHA. This crap is complete ownage. I haven't watched a show as dumb as enchanted since many years ago. It was really hilarious, especially the part where the witch turned into a dragon. Omgawd. Its insanely stupid, but the humor's brilliant. I love the way they poke fun at fairytales (rather ironic that the film came from disney) and the sarcasm's fantastic.

"One day?! You decided to marry your prince after one day?!"

Its something i've never noticed eventhough i've watched all the available fairytales. I've always assumed the prince's really charming (or something along that line) but the prince in enchanted is ridiculously stupid. HAHA.

Love it. Period.

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^{- 2007-11-19 @ 4:48 p.m.}

this week seems pretty interesting. i'm going out on tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday! I'm going to be really broke, but for some strange reason, i feel really happy - i can finally catch up with my sc mates. yayy. ( i have a feeling i'm going to watch three movies. hai )

last week was quite boring. i went for sushi buffet with zhenling and mabel because before that, we went to work out at some ulu gym. i lost like 300 calories, which i gained back very soon after during my sushi buffet. we vowed to finish double of what we paid for. we were so close to it! just 3 more plates each. dang.

i also went for karoake session with my hc girl mates and we stayed in kbox for like 5 hours, singing non-stop. some of them wanted to replay tvxq's rising sun, so i watched it (not sing) like twice, and ahem, they were just screaming their head off. dots. hahahas. i think the waitress was damn pissed at us.

i feel like i'm rotting at home. its so weird. this is my first holiday that i'm so free. i think i need more entertainment

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^{- 2007-11-08 @ 9:00 a.m.}

I was looking at click five's new album at hmv the other day with bin, and then i said,

"Is it me or did the lead singer grow taller?"

"Oh wait. I think he went for plastic surgery too!"

Okay, and then she started laughing. And that was when i realised they are two separate people. Dots.
But i still like Eric more than Kyle. Kyle's voice is not nice -.-

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^{- 2007-11-05 @ 10:20 p.m.}

I went to watch "The Seeker: The Dark is Rising" with bin after her OP. The front was good. The back was er...damn lame. Its a complete waste of my money. For those who are reading my blog, don't go watch The Seeker! You will regret it, therefore, i shall spoil it.

Anyway, its about this little irritating boy who needs to look for six signs so he can save the world from darkness (erps) and he can't find the sixth sign. Near the end of the show, he somehow exclaimed "I know! I'm the sixth sign" (which is like damn lame and expected) and so he has the power to fight the dark (?) which is represented by some rider guy. Basically, the rider guy just became smaller and smaller as the boy stretched out his arm (i was like omg. wth?) and THATS IT. Lamest show i've ever watched.

Had class bbq the day after at jiang hao's house. It was quite fun! I mean, at the start i was just stoning waiting for people to bbq the food since i was feeling lazy. lol. After a while, i decided to go help out with the cooking but stupid kahliang wanted to cook and chase me away. sighh. The girls decided to take a photo and we climbed up some artificial hill to get to the water (some pond looking thing at jianghao's condo) and WAHLAU. I fell into the jacuzzi! Damn sad can, and the whole world was like laughing at me. Hahas. Thank god my handphone wasn't with me, and thank god jianghao lives near me.

Today was Camp: React. Erm, my juniors are so bimbotic. oh well. And glenn arh, your juniors arent any better X) That goes for kylie too, and maybe xiang (though not directly your juniors but those ij girls giving the boys nicknames are weird. er, harry potter? (IM. HAHA) or lion man? er. hmm

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^{- 2007-10-29 @ 5:35 p.m.}

SCREAM!

Those non hwa-chong people reading my blog must be like, wth should i scream? lol. Anyway, scream's this event organised by my school's council, and basically you pay to get scared by councillors dressed up as ghosts.

It was not very scary at first, just a whole lot of people with make up telling you someone killed their sisters/brothers/fathers/mothers etc etc. But when we have to start going into the rooms, zomg. Its so damn freaky. We went to this uber dark place, its so dark you cant even see your fingers. Then some guy came out with some weird looking thing and pushed us into this dark room. (Its the female toilet) and there's this girl inside. OMG SHES SO FREAKY. She keeps tilting her head and smiling, and of all people, why she keep picking on me :p lol. She kept asking for my name and her hand was about to touch my face so i was like

"Don't touch my face"

LOL. I have no idea why i said that also, but yeah. i was really freaked out by her. Some of the other ghosts were quite scary also. Someone hugged me from behind. I almost died. And alot of people keep grabbing my legs and hands, gotten quite used to it near the end then i'll smile back at them. HAHAS.

I want to work now and earn extra cash X) maybe i'll go work in the flower shop at Lot 1 or something. SO FUN =)

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^{- 2007-10-12 @ 10:59 a.m.}

Watched Lust Caution yesterday. The movie was fantastic. I was left speechless at the show, and tang wei's acting is omg. Apart from the fact that she's almost like a porn star, she is actually quite brilliant for an actress!

Got my chem results back yesterday. Not very happy with it though, but hai. There's nothing much i can do can i?

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^{- 2007-10-09 @ 7:26 p.m.}

My piano results are out. I managed to pass this time (thank god). Surprisingly, i passed all the sections, and its truly surprising because i remember playing most of my scales wrongly, but i still passed it! Aural was hilarious. There's this section where i've got to sing the bass part (of which sadly, i can't hear a single note from the bass part) so i sang my own tune. Honestly. I really sang my very own tune composed by me within 5 seconds! (Hahas. Kidding! But i still sang my own tune)
Guess what the examiner wrote?

The front part of the bass was correctly sang at the correct pitch. The notes were accurate until the later part of the song.

OMG. I have amazing guessing skills.

By the way, muay thai was fun =) Loved it.

FOS (Festival of Sports) was....saddening. My team completely got thrashed, and it's really sad to see apollo with a whole lot of supporters while ares's supporters come from mainly, captains ball team A and the frisbee people. I think its the girls' fault (especially mine) that we lost so badly. The guys were really good, and i was really impressed, surprisingly. It was completely unexpected. Coolios =)

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^{- 2007-10-01 @ 6:00 p.m.}

MY PROMOS ARE OVER

Finally, the day i've been waiting for is HERE. =) After bio promos (which kinda sucked cause i have no idea what the definition of retrovirus is although it's given in the notes), went out to watch nanny diaries. It's a mediocre movie, but chris evans is ... =) hahas.

nich treated us to ice-cream at swensens cause its his birthday tomorrow. he paid with a PLATINUM visa card. omg.

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^{- 2007-09-27 @ 9:01 a.m.}

it's almost like...holiday for me, you know? after the end of the chem paper, i went shopping, eating then went home to sleep for the entire day.

yesterday felt like a slacking day too, so i ended up re-watching movies and today is my last day of studying for math. OMG. i just realised i'm dead! OMG. hahahas. have to rush all the way now i guess, and i think i accidentally threw my bio notes away o.0 er, well done!

i can't wait for the end of promos :D then it'll be muay thai days! HAHAS. i can't wait to do some thai kick boxing =) training will resume soon =) and we can finally concentrate on organising term 4 cip day for the school (i hope we get to watch 881. argh) and maybe catch up on fencing. hahas. everyone else can free-fence le, except me! -dies-. nevermind. train harder then =) jia you jia you!

just a little bit more, hang in there!

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^{- 2007-09-20 @ 8:05 a.m.}

according to shonda, why is "a stupid small chloroplast so complicated?!"

yeah. i absolutely agree. same goes for mitochondria, which is even smaller.
i just realised that the new set of notes i acquired (yay) are amazing. i finally understand control and organization of eukaryotic genome. =) why oh why is the human body so complicated.

next week is my first paper, and i havent started on math, and barely halfway for bio. er, good luck to myself eh.

gong zhu xiao mei rocks!

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^{- 2007-09-08 @ 9:37 a.m.}

it's almost the end of the september hols' already and i've barely done anything! mugging session's been so slow and its only two more weeks to promos! omg. i'm dead-ed.

just started watching prison break like yesterday. its FANTASTIC. i love wentworth miller. his name spells hot, hot and hot. but come to think of it, the story is rather retarded. the vice-president's conspiracy huh. can't wait to watch the rest of the episodes. i should really learn to control myself!

i finished high school musical 2 a few days ago. not bad, cheesy and corny as usual. the storyline is so dumb. hahas. but i really like the singing though, esp the song "gotta go my own way". i swear vanessa hudgens is fat. she looks like shes pregnant. gosh. and her hair is like...nothing to say. ashley tisdale is still the best! hahahas. zac efron is really cute =) his voice is fantastic, but doesnt change the fact that his character is a retard. lol.

btw, I LOVE THE 7 PM CHANNEL 8 SHOW. omg. i love herman. hilarious. told bin and shonda i'll marry someone like him if he really exists. he's just so hilarious and super sweet. but bin said herman is such a gay name...hmm. that's true. but hahas. i don't care. herman rocks my socks! :D

i accidentally insulted max (tvxq) on youtube. i just said his hair is ugly what. someone replied to my comment "don't diss". wth? lol. crazy fan.

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^{- 2007-08-29 @ 4:54 p.m.}

It's almost confimred!! i'm going to Germany and Switzerland at the end of this year! (OMG I LOVE MY MUM) it's the first time she's allowing me to tag along with her for a business trip. The last time she went on one, she dumped me in Singapore while she spent loads on stupid clay-made ugly looking clocks, jewellery and weird paintings on postcards in Spain. Come to think of it, i should have forced her to drag me along or buy a ticket myself and force daddy to pay me back later. HAHAS.

*keeping my fingers cross.* let's hope things turn out the way i want them to be.

Btw, today's my piano exam. Completely screwed up my scales. I think i was too nervous and i have this feeling i'll fail my scales. I just hope i don't fail too badly. The rest was quite okay, except aural. Honestly, i can't hear the modulation. Didn't sound like anything to me and i still can't hear the bass part. SIGH. But sight-reading was ridiculously easy!!! Yay!

I have an econs and bio test tomorrow. What a horrible day to study when i'm still brooding over my scales. I should have listened to Dennis. 8 hours of scales everyday. But if i do mathematics, and i practice 15 minutes per day on scales and i fail not too badly vs i practice 8 hours everyday and i score full marks, i think i still prefer the former option :D

I hate economists, really. Why do they come up with theories and rebuke them one by one. If it's so contradictory, THEN DON'T COME UP WITH THEORIES. Honestly right, econs is just common sense packaged in really cheem terms. I hope i can do well for both tests tomorrow. Hai.

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^{- 2007-08-19 @ 3:35 p.m.}

it's 3:35, and i'm not even halfway through math!!
i'm dead, really. my integration notes are filled with NOTHING. this is what you get when you don't pay attention during math lecture, but you see, i'm really trying to. it's such a dry subject.

had my second fencing training after the ultra long "break" from it and i realised i can't catch up -.- i can't even remember how to lunge properly, and i almost tore my muscle, i swear. so much for trying to open my legs wider, i almost did a split i tell you. ouch. my poor thighs.

i can't work properly now :( i tried limping my way to bp plaza to meet mum and she was browsing through some really weird vcds, and i realised its those stupid hokkien operas. i have no idea why people watch hokkien operas you know, and of all people, my mum!! but it's good she's starting to learn to watch the tv cause now she has no reason to blame me for watching too much. aha =)

there's no more debate and cip exco until the end of promos. ah well. for the first time in the year i actually feel i have quite alot of time. hmm.

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^{- 2007-08-11 @ 6:29 p.m.}

3 weeks down to my piano exam

6 weeks more to promos.

3 weeks more to SPA.

oh god. save me.

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^{- 2007-08-05 @ 10:09 p.m.}

i always thought life was getting better, considering i have two months all to myself. i don't have to see the people i don't want to see, or talk to the people i don't feel like talking to, or even pretend i know them well because i don't, and i don't want to.

but i'm wrong. life's getting worse, and i don't even know what led me to this stage, or the million wrong decisions i made about my life. but when i look back, perhaps i'll have made the exact same decision, because there's no where else i can go without feeling worse.

i guess i just have to deal with it. i can't do anything else, can i?

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^{- 2007-07-27 @ 4:47 p.m.}

movie review: vacancy!

hilarious, really. when nich called mabel up to invite us to go watch movie with the guys, we asked whether it was r-rated. nich said it's got to do with 2 people in the bedroom (lol). whatever! i never heard of vacancy, really. in the end, its just some stupid thriller where the murderers look like darth vader. doh.

so it was me, mab, zhenling, nickfoo, kevin, xuanhan, yanming, jianghao and nicloh at cine. the theatre was, surprisingly, rather crowded. throughout the entire movie, i was just screaming my head off cause mabel scared me. i'm okay with horror, really. i don't mind watching those with ghosts floating around, but i hate gore. i really really hate gore. and my eyes hurt after looking at dishevelled half-naked woman lying on the ground after they were stabbed to death. it was just disgusting.

and the ending, nevermind. but i was glad it was short (and its finally over!) what a painful experience, really. i swear i'll never watch these kind of stupid thrillers again. what a good waste of $6.50. plus, i went home with a headache. ouch.

WXY. HAHAS. I TOLD YOU IT WAS FATE :D

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^{- 2007-07-25 @ 10:27 p.m.}

i know its all over, and i know i shouldn't complain. but honestly, this is the most poorly organized debate competition i've ever been to. firstly, they made us report at 10.30. Briefing only started at 11.00 (which is in itself retarded). Debate starts at 1.00. However, the briefing lasted for like 5 minutes, and it was a prepared debate, my team and i just sat down at one corner of the school and stone. Honestly, i could have just slept till 12. What a waste of my time.

Secondly, how can they do power pairing at quarts?! This is completely ridiculous. What is the point of scoring high and winning both rounds then?! We might as well just screw up, pray we still get into quarts and get ranked at the bottom so we can meet someone who is ranked at the bottom too? It's completely retarded.

Nationals have obviously ended. Sigh. But there's so many people i want to thank so badly, like my team and mr tan. Really, we wouldn't have made it anywhere if not for Mr Tan. Also, sheng who came down to coach us dutifully and yes, don't suck, we know. lol. Mark for being there with us. The best seniors ever for coming down to support us and giving us training. It really means alot. Jianyang, Zhang and Phoebe for coming down to support us. All my classmates for their support. CIP Exco members for their encouragement (stupid kuang li. why must your prediction come true. oh and yida owes me mudpie from island creamery. yay). Louis - for your prayers and always being there for the team. My ex-teammates, for giving me a hug when i feel so down. And basically, just everyone who helped the hc team in one way or another.

i was looking, and i realised it's been so long. it skipped a beat and ached for a while. why did i sink into this black hole again? crap. its frustrating, and i hate it.

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^{- 2007-06-26 @ 3:48 p.m.}

its the end of hols' already. it doesn't seem anything like it though. first three weeks are just packed with cca commitments (i had fun emceeing :) but nonetheless, it was scary) or like grand seniors coming down (heard both of them are going to LSE) talking about parallel importing which, i assure you, is NOT english. last week is packed with mugging. mugging and mugging.

i had my econs and gp paper already. its horrendous. REALLY REALLY horrendous. i was still aiming for A, but now C is already a great achievement. actually, no. D is fine. (sigh) now i understand why seniors say block tests are supposed to block you from passing, not to mention friday's the bio test (of which i haven't pass a single one yet up till now).

jia you jia you! 3 more days to SLACKING.

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^{- 2007-05-09 @ 8:22 p.m.}

ms adele made us do a split yesterday. now i feel like i can't stand and walk properly. and my muscles ache like crazy. SIGH.

btw, training was funny today. interesting quotes from dear kylie, as usual

"it's obvious that the opposition hasn't gone to a brothel" (WTH. HAHAS)

"Prostitutes are foreigners that do not originate from their land of origin" (???)

tomorrow's the first official cip exco meeting. kinda looking forward to it. jia you X)

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^{- 2007-05-08 @ 6:18 p.m.}

i had inspiration to write last night, but diaryland didn't give me the chance. screw administration problems.

anyway, yes. what was i going to say? ahah. yep. i`m going to blog about my new school (ok. its not that new but hahas. its still new)

on hindsight, i'll most probably not make the same decision again. i'm not saying the school sucks, or the teacher sucks, or the people sucks cause its all not true. my teammates rock. my class rocks. the teachers rock. and the school's...well...decent enough to feel a sense of belonging to it i guess. its just the system. i talked to mum about it. i told her i should have just gone elsewhere, where its not so competitive. but mum says thats life and i`ve got to deal with it. whatever things i want to commit myself to, i`ve got to really fight for it. theres nothing wrong per se for fighting for something you want, but it just irks me that i have to go for a million interviews each time i want to get into (for eg. cip exco) or any other excos i'm running for. its just....tiring. it doesn't help that a hundred people out there want that few ten positions you know, and obviously you know you're not the best out there. its hwa chong anyway - full of imbalanced people. (haha)

but then again, i'll make the same decision nonetheless even when i'm in sec 4 (if i didn't know hwa chong was that competitive. screw bio. fail then fail. why compare?) because i can't possibly imagine myself anywhere else. rj? acs i? nj? vj? acjc? poly? nah. i don't think i'll fit well in any of the above.

so, i've committed myself to four ccas (elddfs - debate, cip exco, fencing, hnf). hopefully they don't clash. i mean...2 of them are slack so its okay. anyway, i've decided not to run for hnf exco. i want ld exco more i guess. (but the questions are like...omg. what pick-up lines?!)

oh? did i mention my juniors came in FIRST for JGS! AHAH! see! i always knew scgs rocks (and is obviously not made up of bimbos since my juniors won the main DEBATE competition. HAHAS.) yayyyyyyyyy!!!

oh. did i tell you tank came to my school. lalalalalala. sighh. his voice is so damn good. ahh. and wuzun's face appeared on the big screen. lalalalala. i hope farenheit will come to hwachong next year or something. i'll make sure i'll queue up 2 hours before hand to await their grand arrival. yay.

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^{- 2007-04-26 @ 4:21 p.m.}

GG

i have 4 ccas.
i have 2 lecture tests next week.
i have to stay back in school everyday until 6.
well done!
i'm damn tired. i need rest. SIGH.

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^{- 2007-04-23 @ 7:21 p.m.}

i just got a birthday card from the class.

dennis's msg :
hi yk! zao sheng gui zi (may you have a son soon)

wth. LOL

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^{- 2007-04-19 @ 4:17 p.m.}

yesterday was my birthday. it was a bad start cause my own parents forgot about it. (lol). but guess what, it was one of the best days ever in my life afterall (though kinda embarassing)

thanks guys for that wonderful zara tank top with my ugly face on it (and burnt. HAHAS).
thanks for the pink hanger which u guys used to hang the shirt up on top of the class bench of which i took half an hour to realise it was there (and choked on my water of course :p)
thanks for those wonderful bodyshop make-up. i knew it. my sc friends know me the best (HAHAS)
thanks for that furry pink ball of pig/sheep whatever it is that u guys try to hang up :p
thanks for that delicious mint polar cake :)
thanks for that wonderful brownie (though yarn ate like 1/4 of it)
thanks for those smses. i`m so glad you guys remember :)
thanks for those friendster comments too =)

sighh. this is one of the best birthdays ever. i love my friends, really <3

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^{- 2007-04-12 @ 10:49 p.m.}

to go or not to go.
sigh.

africa. africa. africa. africa. no africa. no africa. no africa.

ah. this is screwed

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^{- 2007-04-05 @ 7:43 p.m.}

fanghua's like my new source of entertainment.

*sick joke censored*

anyway, during math lecture, e-tian's pen dropped on the floor and fanghua kicked it down two steps.
mab: why u purposely kick e-tian's pen down?
fanghua: no. instinctively

wahlau. HAHAS.

ok. let's talk about debate. ac intercolls were okay. i thought i did quite well =) yay. my team did well also, esp for the debate against vj though we lost. the other 2 were just crap but heck. we improved =) and the best thing about us is that we improved through the competition, and that's what matters.

my 6 weeks MC is ending soon, so that means i can go back for H&F soon. i just found out from wingkee that our poor H&F (aka health and fitness. and wei. don`t laugh. yoga and aerobics are fun kay! and it keeps me healthy) only has 3 J1s, which means we better do something to recruit more people (and the way to do it must be better than V&R, sorry mab) and somehow get at least 15. yayy. if not, we're dead. like dead-ed. hahas.

this week was bad. really bad. its like double blow. sighh. but its okay. hopefully, i can forget about it and look ahead instead. i didn't get it, but at least it was fun and enjoyable, and i know i have friends out there who care (just shows i`m not that bad a friend :p). but what alfred said was true. giving up everything for that is just stupid, and come to think of it, maybe i`ll somehow regret if i`ve got it. but that's totally another story. but still...life goes on, and now i can concentrate fully on debate =) yayy.

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^{- 2007-03-17 @ 9:24 a.m.}

TEST

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^{- 2007-03-03 @ 7:42 p.m.}

it's been really long since i`ve blogged. sigh. i`m either too lazy to write stuff since my life's really boring right now, or i`m too tired to write after writing so much stuff in school (be it GP essays/comprehension application skills/bio essays) etc etc.

anyway, school's been a blast recently. apart from like 4 debate trainings a week, countless tests (of which i`m barely passing), school's kinda fun actually. ct outing rocks, cause me and zhenling ate like tons of food. we ordered

1) 1 plate of fish with lemon and honey (each) with includes this mash potato thats like the size of a bowl of rice (each)
2) spicy and normal fries with cheese
3) a gigantic chocolate cake
4) strawberry and banana smoothie for me and orange juice for her

and i only spent 11 plus cause regina got 30% discount card!! WOOHOO. yayy.

btw, if u haven't known, i have 6 weeks MC from PE. maybe it'll stretch to the swimming part. YAY. i don`t want swimming :(

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^{- 2007-02-11 @ 3:42 p.m.}

it took me an hour to tune my guitar. -dies-
it just shows how lousy the supplier is since he doesnt bother to tune it for us being selling the guitars to us.
hmph.

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^{- 2007-02-10 @ 8:32 a.m.}

i`m happy cause i`m staying :). i`m happy cause everyone else i know in hwa chong are all staying :) i`m happy cause somehow miraculously i got an A1 for higher chinese (considering i wrote some bullshit essay with all the singapore attraction's names wrongly)

anyway, its really times like this that you know people care for you. really.
i received like 23 phone calls, 6 from my mum (who keeps calling me during the briefing), 2 from my dad, some from my relatives whom i can`t really rmb and others from my hwa chong classmates/seniors/teammates/sc juniors/outside friends.
sigh. i feel loved :)
and i had to send at least 30 smses also. wahahas. smsing each other about our results and congratulating each other. sigh. i`m so glad everyone i know did well :) that means i`ll see them AGAIN for another TWO YEARS! woo!

oh, btw, did i mention that my jnrs won the first round of JGS
UNANIMOUSLY?!
WOO. GO SC GO! GO SC GO!
ok. nevermind. considering my teammate's from rgs i shall stop here.

anyway, i went for drama fest later in the day. the MCs were damn lame, but funny lar. (but still damn lame. omg.) then the performances were quite ok. i mean, i really liked ares`s cause (i`m from ares?) wahahas. no lar. cause i thought all their acting were really good (*go evelyn*). i couldn't understand athena's at all, but according to the judge, there were alot of hidden messages yadda yadda in the drama (maybe i`m just stupid). oh. the artemis one was scary, and so morbid. sigh. but the ending was fantastic lar. damn cool. hahas. the apollo's one? erm. shant be bias here. afterall, it was adapted from a book *cough*. that was why it had so much for depth than the rest, but still...nvm.
i support ares all the way anyway :)

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^{- 2007-01-28 @ 8:38 a.m.}

it is 8.38 am.

why am i still not studying for my econs test?!

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^{- 2007-01-21 @ 9:42 a.m.}

i`ve been troubled by many things recently. it's like, i`m trying to forget but the words just kept repeating themselves in my head and its gotten really irritating.

things i used to be good at long ago (really long ago), i`m no longer decent in it. it's like, i have no idea why i'm still sticking through all this shit when i finally retracted myself from it and kaboom, i`m back again. i can't blame anyone for that. i tried to do self-reflections, like how i can help myself and pull myself together, but it just made me more depressed. the worst thing is, now "all this shit" has gotten worse, and don't know why i'm still staying. this is dumb.

i'll give myself three months. three months

now, still stuck in all this shit, i was only able to survive because of that. and now that that's gone for awhile, i guess i'll just wait for that to come back and in the mean time, see what happens.

i told myself no. that is dumb. no. but sigh. things just happen

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^{- 2007-01-14 @ 10:51 a.m.}

wahahas. i`m starting to like hwa chong. maybe cause i have a fantastic class! woohoo!

anyway, i finished my math homework. i`m a genius or what! (kiddin` :p)

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^{- 2007-01-11 @ 8:49 p.m.}

life's just been so hectic i don`t know where to start.

its almost 2 weeks in hwa chong already, but i still haven't grow to like it. i have a great class, but i still can`t fit into the hwa chong culture. And certain stuff is already happening when i'm seriously dreading it. its like how i cant stand certain people there (maybe i`m just being emo) but i...nevermind. i can't say it here. sigh. this is really bad.

btw, i`ve signed up for alot of CCAs. so i`m currently in ELDDFS and taekwando which is kinda dumb cause i`ll most probably sprain my leg or smthg, and i`m going for dance tryouts (wahahas. pple who know me will know i cant dance for nuts but i shall just go there and play. maybe join recreational or smthg) and table-tennis and shooting tryouts. i don`t know whether i made the right decision, esp when i feel like running away from this certain CCA because i was never happy in it.

SIGH. this is bad.

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^{- 2007-01-04 @ 6:58 p.m.}

i'm too lazy to blog about orientation. i'll just roughly summarise it.

endless talks for the first half of the day about subject combinations yadda yadda. orientation games involve endless sharing of saliva and endless couple dancing (i still can't get that stupid turning thing) and funny songs which were edited from chinese pop songs.

haiz. tom i`ll be in soap and water. wish me luck -.-

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^{- 2007-01-02 @ 10:03 a.m.}

HAPPY NEW YEAR

ok. its pass new year but heck care :). been quite depressed for the past few days after i received my OG list only to realise that i know zero people in my OG, which is kind of like a bad start. but like what fifi says, its a chance to meet more people so i'm feeling quite excited now :)

anyway, i don't really have a new year resolution this year, because i never follow it and i'll most probably have forgotten all about it by the end of january. but most importantly, i just don't want to get kicked out of hwachong and hopefully, sustain what i got for my prelims and i'm really thankful :) its kinda sad that i'm not going back to sc on wednesday. i kind of miss the school already. sigh.

ahh! and my sentosa trip got cancelled. *glares at bin* but nvm. i will go there again...one day.

so...less than 24 hours to school. jia you.

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^{- 2006-12-29 @ 5:30 p.m.}

i'm really tired. i desperately need some stuff to entertain myself, and youtube is hopelessly failing me thanks to a certain country.
ahhh! i'm going crazy.

ok. i need my naruto, but mum haven't got it for me though i paid her like 3 months ago, not to mention tsubasa and hunter x hunter. ahh! its been so long since i read a comic book.

thats not all. i have NO DRAMA SERIALS to watch. i mean i do, but none's good. i've resorted to watching weird korean dramas with nonsensical storylines but heck care.

ok. so i moved on to books, and the only book i found in the library that looked interesting was some bimbotic crap called the clique which is full of nonsense and bitchiness.

crap. my holiday sucks.

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^{- 2006-12-25 @ 6:48 p.m.}

Merry Christmas!

This should be my happiest christmas thus far. I've managed to acheive what i set out to acheive at the start of the year, coupled with scholarships and awards which i didn't expect to get. its all like a bonus. I managed to go to shanghai, which was my aim last year. I sent the most number of cards this year as compared to others, with an overwhelming record of 29 cards, with more to follow. (ouch. there goes my stamps).

But somehow i don`t feel as happy. I'm not as excited as i should be for next year. Afterall, it`ll be the first time in my life that i`ll be studying in a co-ed school. lol. It just felt kinda weird. Really. I've been remembering alot of stuff ever since i came back from china, having weird dreams that brought back happy (or sad) memories, most of which i wish to experience again. But i doubt it'll happen...

Btw, i still remember. Really. I know you've forgotten but i still remember. And it hurts being the only one who didn't forget

Anyway, school's starting in...a week? Hope i`ll get myself hyped up by then...(sigh)

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^{- 2006-12-20 @ 9:29 p.m.}

i never knew soap operas were so addictive!

O.C is the love baby! WOO! i love benjamin mckenzie! yay man!

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^{- 2006-12-18 @ 9:01 p.m.}

i went out today to meet bin and maine for lunch at vivo. i was late for half an hour. (oops) we ate at carls jnr, and there was this guy sitting directly in front of me acting weirdly. he was wearing this weird looking knitted kind of hat. (btw, he`s around my age) and he kept looking around. (he looked really familiar btw). then i looked more closely.
guess who he is...
joshua ang! (in case u didn`t know, he`s the guy from i not stupid)
lol. poor thing. can`t even eat lunch properly. btw, i saw some girl with him.
disclaimer: i`m not saying she`s his gf or anything.

i wanted to go to sentosa later on, but maine refused cause she`s wearing some long-sleeve shirt and she says she will probably be cooked under the hot sun in sentosa. anyway, i consoled myself by getting that free bag at sasa. just fill in a form with your particulars and a certain bus no. and u`ll get a free hot pink bimbotic tote bag.

so much for consolation...

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^{- 2006-12-18 @ 9:30 a.m.}

i went to watch eragon with my brother, and it was a never-before experience. nah. i`m not referring to the movie itself, but to what happened before and during the movi